Inside a cupboard, a 16 yrs old gal hug her ownself tightly.
Hair spreading all over her face, peeking from inside.
Her name is xiao shu, officially, she does not have a real name.
Meaning, she doesnt have a identification card. The whole Taiwan country doesnt have her.
Her mum, wen pei qian was pregnant with her when she was only 14 yrs old.
Feeling disgrace of own child, her mum was chase out of the family by her parent.
She had nothing with her. Wandering around and with no reason she reached Ken Ding,
a part of place in Taiwan. With luck, she found a broken house near to a village.
At the age of 14, alone with no identity card and no job.
She had no choice but to " sell " her body for money to survive.
Days after days, her life get better , at least with enough food for herself.
Soon, xiao shu was born. Nobody can request a 14 yrs old gal to be a mother,
so xiaoshu was independent from young.
She learnt how to walk, how to talk all by herself until when she's 8 years old.
She followed the villages 's children to school. Standing outside the school gates, she met a teacher.
Despite xiaoshu's family background, Miss zhang pitied her and gave her a place in the corner of the class.
She helped her in studys and alot. In the class, Xiaoshu was a " special " student because she had no money to pay school fees, no money to buy shoes and books. Some other classmates know her mum earn money by " selling" body to man. Many hates and look down on xiaoshu and this made xiaoshu lost confidence to herself. She dared not look up when walking pass by people.
Xiaoshu treat the cupboard as her own bed, the reason is because the bed- her mum always had business with man, short, tall, fat, thin all sorts - everynight.
Many male villagers know there's a pretty lady providing this kind of services so everyone wants to try and the exist of her mum became enemy of all the woman in the villages. Everynight, xiaoshu hides in the cupboard. Seeing her mum and other man having sexual intercourse- and sex to xiaoshu is no longer a secret like other young children.But this man is different !
Her mum said she'd fall in love with a guy. This guy named jiang guan yun , handsome, tall and rich. He was not a local, but was from Tai Bei. He just graduated and came here to do business . Her mum told xiaoshu everything about him and xiaoshu admired her mum. The first time her mum felt so happy. Her mum even requested xiaoshu to help her " bluff " jiang guan yun that xiaoshu was her sister not daughter. Xiaoshu agreed . That night , Jiang Guan Yun came and proposed to her mum. After he left, xiaoshu came out but her mum told her to get back because she' going to have the last customer for the money to buy new clothes and do some dolling up.
Unfortunately.. her mum was killed by the customer.
The customer was strong, tall and fierce. He was drunk and rape her mum like mad.
Witnessing her mum 's death, xiaoshu was totally frightened. She stunted there, afraid to move until the "murderer" called police. All the villagers came, including him, Jiang Guan Yun. Since Jiang Guan Yun know Wen Pei Qian, there's alot of comments told to him that xiaoshu's mum was a prostitute but he dont believe. Now, in front of his eyes, he do not want to take in the facts, recalling that Wen Pei Qian told him that she had a sister, Xiaoshu. He chased all the villagers away and shouted for xiaoshu. There was no reply until he caught a sight from a cupboard. He opened up and saw a thin girl crying inside. He lifted xiaoshu 's face and asked. He then realised everything. A feeling popped out into his mind- begin cheated . He asked xiaoshu followed him and she did after all the funeral had finished.
His main purposes was not to take care of her but to torture her. He brought her back to his new-build farm and pushed every chores to her. The whole farm, she was the only female and young girl. For a 16 yrs old girl, everyone think that she cannot take it sooner or later but surprisingly she does everything on time and finished it all with no complain.. instead she felt.. happy because .. she can be with him. Yes you might be thinking ... Huh ? Indeed, Xiaoshu fall in love with him at the first sight she saw him from the cupboard. Her only idea that he brought her back was he want to take care of her. She felt happy .
Jiang Guan Yun was frustrated. He want her to feel insulted, he want her to be tortured but wrong its all wrong, she was happy!
Feeling not happy, he pushed more and more chores for her that xiaoshu had no choice but to drop out from school.
24 hours- she only had 4 hours sleep. The workers there, pitied her , a young beautiful girl begin tortured this way.
Xiaoshu was really a beauty, her smile was sweet and pretty. But to Jiang Guan Yun, xiaoshu's smile was a way to seduce man.
There's one time he caught her smiling to one of the worker, he came and scolded off the worker then turned to xiaoshu and said,
" so , just as i thought..? you're going to take over your mum 's business isn't it? "
after that he disappeared , xiaoshu was hurt. To Jiang Guan yun, xiao shu is a cheap and dirty gal. He hate her because of the feeling cheated by her mum and xiaoshu became the scapegoat for her mum.
Xiao shu love to sketch, she always sat under the tree that she had planted and start sketching. This tree, she like it, but one time when she picked up the seeds , Jiang Guan Yun took it away and plant it in other place , the place where she's sitting and sketching now.
4 years past and this became xiao shu's life, she had no future. One day, she went to the tree and saw him infront of it. She sit under the tree and started sketching. Jiang Guan Yun had one sister named Xiao Ti and XIao Ti was Xiao Shu's good friend.
Xiao Ti came and sat beside her, she asked her ," Xiao Shu, i know you like my brother but liking him is the wrong idea. You should leave him and lead your own future! "
Xiaoshu rejected and insisted her own way. All she wanted is just to be with him. That's all and she will feel satisfy.
When xiao ti went off, Jiang Guan yun suddenly sat beside her. He asked her to be his bed- relationship woman and xiaoshu agreed.
One day, xiaoshu realised she was pregnant. She felt happy but soon was sad because she was afraid of the response from Guan yun.
The day before Guan yun going back to Tai Bei , She asked him if he would want her baby. He replied immediately without thinking ,
" No, i dont want your baby ! "
and she asked him what if she is pregnant , again with no hesitation, he replied ,
" ABORT IT ! "
and he left for tai bei the next day.
During the 10 days when he away, he heard that Xiao shu was missing.
He rushed back immediately with his future wife - Su Zhen Chan.
Upon hearing Guan yun was back, xiao shu ignored the pain on her and went back to the farm.
She served the dinner to Guan yun and Su Zhen Chan .
Guan yun asked her where had she go, she didnt replied but his future wife opened her mouth and start insulting because she saw the eyes in Guan yun, he care and concern about this worker- xiao shu.
She purposely tripped Xiao shu over and let her fall down. The dinner dropped and Su Zhen Chan scolded her. Guan yun was satisfied, watching the show begin. He didnt give any damn until xiao shu fainted.
He quickly carried her to a nearby hospital. One of the nurses saw xiao shu and said to Guan Yun,
" told her not to go back . she had not recovered yet , even if allowed to go back she should not had go work! "
Guan yun then found out from the nurse, that 10 days when he was away.
Xiao shu went for abortion and nearly lost her life due to big amount loss of blood.
After that, he bring her back to the farm and saw the abortion pill on her table but his heart was still hard. He didnt soften down.
xiao shu recovered soon and starts working . She received a news - Guan Yun going to marry soon.
Her heart dropped. Finally she realised her insisting didnt work. Guan Yun still hates her. And he's going to marry other woman soon not her..
everytime xiao shu was bullied by Su Zhen Chan , Guan yun would joined in and also insult her. Even if xiaoshu was not in the wrong.
One day, xiao ti and other workers asked xiao shu to go for a relax stroll . Guan yun stands behind the other workers and asked,
" You dont want to go ? "
" Do you wish me to go? " asked xiaoshu.
" I dont wish you to go, i dont want others to misunderstand. " a cold replied by Guan yun.
Xiaoshu rejected and went back to her room. She was sketching again. Realising one colour was gone she went out to buy.
On that road, xiao shu was robbed and beaten up.
Around 3am++ xiaoshu woke up on the grass, she cried. Without thinking of the injury she had with herself, she ran back to the farm because she was afraid Guan yun would scold her.
Guan yun was pacing up and down outside the farm when he saw her. Xiao shu was shocked that he would wait outside for her, suddenly everything turned blurred and she cant see him. she hugged him tightly and told him not to leave.. Guan yun was pissed.
" Still not satisfied after having it with other man? You're really greedy " said Guan yun.
" please dont go.. dont go .. " begged xiao shu.
" Jiang Xiao Shu, do you really want me to look down on you?! "
And more insulting words were said to her .. and he left after that..
Days past , xiao shu was getting weaker . Some times for no reason, she cant see anything , her sight turned blurred.
Then she realised she was pregnant again, this time knowing that he would not want his baby . she thought carefully.
she want the baby. but he would ask her to abort it so she make a decision..
Guan yun opened the door and saw Xiao Shu outside of his room - with make-up.
She was beautiful, even without make- up but with make-up on. Guan Yun disliked it more.
XIao shu went in his room , he asked xiaoshu to wash away all the make - up and she did.
Then she secretly put a letter under his file. And they had the last night.
Xiao shu left.. she went to find doctor and the information she received was not so good as expected. she wanted to keep the baby but if she do that, she will lost her sight. the reason why is because that night when she was robbed , she was begin hit and thus cause her to be blind soon if she doesnt have a operation. but if she did have the operation, the baby will be gone. so she choose to be blind. she dont want to kill her baby any more.
5 years had gone and Guan Yun was married with Su Zhen Chan but the marriage was not a good one. He had not slept with her at all. They quarrelled almost everytime. Guan yun was sick of her , this 5 years he finally realised his mistakes - using hates to cover over all the love he had for xiaoshu. He was very success on his farm business, now as the top ranking of billionaire. He start to get sick of it. He missed her alot , from America, he came back to Ken Ding. The farm and sat under the tree where xiao shu always sat while sketching. His younger brother's wife suddenly popped out and told him..
" i really need to tell you this , i cant stand it anymore. But dont tell other people that im telling you this, because they will get angry with me! Xiao shu had turned blind after she had given birth to your child , now working at her massage center opened by XIao Ti. We helped her alot but didnt mentioned our identity because she would definitely turned down our offer. "
Suddenly a guy came and grabbed her - Guan yun's younger brother- he had a bad temper and scolded his wife but begin clever , she cried and his temper decrease by 100% because his wife was pregnant now . After they had left, Guan yun rooted to the ground.. shocked..
He went to find his sister but she dont want to give any information. Until he followed her and found out where xiao shu was, he was heartbroken.
Xiaoshu standing outside the school, waiting for her son to be dismiss.
" Mummy! Today teacher teach me alot of new things eh!! " Ji Geng said .
Ji Geng was a boy who looked so like his father - Guan yun and also a understanding boy.
" mummy, open your mouth "
Xiao shu opened her mouth and a sweet was put inside.
" Wah, you give mummy eat , then you ? " asked xiao shu.
" I still have ! " Ji Geng took out the wrapper and pretend to unwrap and put inside his mouth.
" haha , good boy. "
Miss Hua was touched by the scene. Ji Geng was so good to her mum, she called Ji Geng over and gave him more sweets.
Ji Geng thanks her and went over to a mum , then Xiao Ti- Mrs Bo came and fetched them to the massage center.
Xiao shu then let Ji Geng follow Mrs Bo's house to play.
She smiled - the smile was not fake and not afraid any more. Its was more proud and happy, this shocked Guan yun.
She had changed alot.. He went in the massage center and asked Xiao Shu to service him.
His voice stunted Xiao shu but immediately recovered - recalling that he was already married and might have alot of children already.
She asked him his name, and he replied his name as Mr Yu , a novel writer.
He started asking alot of her past though he already know it. He was touched by the love she had for him.
The love that no matter how much torture was given to her , she endured over it.
No matter how much insults and bullies she had endure it. The love never changed even now ..
He decided to win her back, chase her back. He want her back in his life.
Everyday he accompany her and his son , till one day Ji Geng asked her mum that he wanted Guanyun to be his daddy.
Xiao shu was stunted but because of her son persuading , she gave a fake promise.
She requested " Mr Yu " to leave but he rejected it.
Days past , guan yun did alot of things that touched Xiao shu's heart but the love for guan yun.. remain..
Guan yun found a doctor for her. He want her to recover from the blindness, at first xiao shu rejected but agreed to try.
Weeks after her operation, its time for her to unbandage her eyes. She was afraid of the results.
When the bandage left her eyes, her sight was abit blurred so the doctor told her to close her eyes and open it again.
She tried and the people she saw in front of her, shocked her. It was him, guan yun..
Ji Geng ran and hug XIaoshu, xiaoshu didnt expect her son to be so smart and handsome .. just like.. his dad..
All the people that helped her when she had turned blind were all his siblings and friends.. She was touched.
After Guan yun's sister and brothers left, she look around searching for something..
" what are you looking for ? " a same cold voice stopped her searching.
She replied him nothing.
" You 're looking for Mr Yu- the novel writer? " said Guan Yun.
" Yes im looking him or.. "
" You're right, im him- the novel writer. "
Suddenly, a scenery of Ji Geng begin hugged by Guan yun. He came back to take him away from her, all his pretending as novel writer to touch her , were fake. His purpose was to take Ji Geng away..
" Why did you appeared ?" She asked.
" Loving him, is my ability. I cant stop myself from loving him, like you always unable to erase the past and hating him this learning is too hard, its not in my knowledge." said Xiaoshu.
He took in what she said seriously and replied," I came back to take back what its belong to me. "
True, she didnt guess wrong, he came back to take away Ji Geng from her. At this moment, her heart dropped, she lost to him again. She lost her love to him and now.. she's going to lose her last thing in her life- Ji Geng.
" But why? you had your marriage, your children , why do you still want Ji Geng?! "
" I only have Ji Geng this child. " He dont just want Ji Geng but Xiaoshu- this girl who is easily satisfied.
" You both can work hard more and one day, you will have your own child, please.. dont take away Ji Geng..please? " pleaded Xiaoshu.
" We dont have the slots to work hard anymore. " Finally he understands, how hurt she are.. she still mind the exist of Su Zhen Chan.
She keep on pleading and pleading and he keep rejecting and rejecting. Finally she give up by using pleading.
" Im sorry, Mr. Guan Yun but Ji Geng, i will not let you take away. "
" He's my son and his future cannot be confirmed by just your words. " He smiled, only if she lift her head up, she will know what Guan Yun feeling now but its a pitied that she didnt because she had never dared to look into his eyes.
" I had grown up and im had changed. Im independent and i can earn money to support my child."
" You didnt even take good care of yourself. "
" But this few years, i had never let Ji Geng goes hungry. "
" but never let him felt satisfied. " replied GuanYun.
" His knowledge and satisfaction is enough. "
" He need a father, but did you satisfy him?"
" before you came, he had never suggest this. " Getting more and more worried, she lifted her head and saw his smile.
" problem is, i appeared and Ji Geng cant leave me anymore."
" so, you want me to leave him?" His smile pressured her heart. In her life, she always had to face so much separation..
" why do he need to leave you?" he soften down his tone ..
" i thought you're going to bring him back to the farm with Miss Su.. "
" We 're already divorced. " replied Guanyun.
" but why?! " Xiao Shu was shocked after receiving this news. She thought he loved her so much..
" I came to realise i cant sleep the same bed with her, i cant accept her to be wife. "
" This is ridiculous! You're the one who want to marry her! " Xiaoshu argued back.
" I admit my decisicion was ridiculous, i should not have find the other people just because i want to reject my feeling to another person. "
" I don't get it.. " Xiaoshu shooked her head, curiousity written on her head.
" On that night when you're robbed, i waited outside the farm for you. I came back worrying about you, scared that you would leave me; but when you're back, clothes were so untidied, i accused you with another man having sex. Im jealous. Im angry so i put you and your mother together as the same situation.. but i came to realise.. i fall into the same trap. I fall in love with you, fall in love with a full of lie and " cheap " girl , this realise made me angry so i used the most cruel methods to make you leave me.. "
All this words only will come out from Mr novel- writer.. its was like a dream.. he said he love her. How am she going to believe it, how to ?! What if she turn her head and he starts insulting her again?
" i regretted. after that the day you left, i went in your room and saw all the leaves you picked from the tree i planted for you and all the colors you colored on it, all this leaves were critising my unforgivness. I always thought you want to gain something from me just like your mother but you said nothing and left my live not bringing anything along but leave me a memories of the trees.. "
" you said you regretted, but why didnt look for me? "
" its my damn pride that cause me to stop what i really want. I insisted marrying Su Zhen Chan , thinking of using marriage to take over the world. Im right but.. something that were wrong will not turned correct .. On the day of marriage, i saw the smile on Su Zhen Chan's face, right on that moment, i understand i will never be able to live my life with this woman so i keep rejecting her, she hates me and i lost away my marriage. I spent 5 years working hard at america and i turned into America most rich person but all this popularity cant satisfy me, i only feel like returning to Taiwan , staying quietly under the tree that you had left for me."
His words touched Xiao Shu, she forgot all the pain and all the hurt. All she want was to console the man infront of her.
" i kept asking myself, was it your mum who hurt me more or i hurt you more.. i kept asking myself was it the first love i cant forget.. i kept asking and asking.." said Guan Yun.
" got your answer? " asked Xiao Shu.
" Yes, i got it. I had never missed your mum not like you who always came into my heart. To your mum, i only felt angry. Thought through seriously, It her lie which make me get angry and she was the one who give me a feeling of losing pride."
" Losing pride in front of my mum? I dont get it."
" That year, i tried various way to get off my family 's business and started my own business. I purposely get away from the expectations from my parent and do what i wanted to do. Opening a farm is one and choosing own marriage is another. I had chosen your mum because of her beauty and her lack of understanding. Her pure romantic was what i had never experienced before but i didnt realise this decision was a insultation. It ruins my confidence and also ruin my business , it turn everything into a joke , so i asked you to be with me to keep reminding myself. i need to succeed. "
" You did... "
" No, i failed, i lost a girl who idolize me since 16 years old, i lost a girl who felt happy even just by praying and missing me. Lost a girl who cant forget me, and my exist continued in her story life . This is not succeed.. "
" You... " He remembered whatever she said.. clearly..
" XiaoShu, you should had told me everything early.. "
" You wont believe it, you will treat it as another lie.. "
" Im so self-centered, im not worth for your 100% love.. "
" its worth.. in my story life, you're forever worth it.. "
Hugging him, she felt the feeling of happiness.. She's was still Xiao Shu! If there's a chance to love him, even a little bit.. she will catch hold of it..
" My identity is fake , im not a novel writer, are you willing to teach me and help me a good love novel ..? He walked to the window and opened up the box. Pieces of leaves with love shape and names written on it unfold infront of Xiao Shu 's eyes. Holding the leaves, all she can do is to catch hold of it tightly and consoling it..
Xiao Shu's happiness had started.. He's no longer a character in her story.. but her life.. that year, she was 29.. beginning the road of happiness..
Title= Ku Zi Wei; Author= Xi Zhi
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6:23 AM
Hair spreading all over her face, peeking from inside.
Her name is xiao shu, officially, she does not have a real name.
Meaning, she doesnt have a identification card. The whole Taiwan country doesnt have her.
Her mum, wen pei qian was pregnant with her when she was only 14 yrs old.
Feeling disgrace of own child, her mum was chase out of the family by her parent.
She had nothing with her. Wandering around and with no reason she reached Ken Ding,
a part of place in Taiwan. With luck, she found a broken house near to a village.
At the age of 14, alone with no identity card and no job.
She had no choice but to " sell " her body for money to survive.
Days after days, her life get better , at least with enough food for herself.
Soon, xiao shu was born. Nobody can request a 14 yrs old gal to be a mother,
so xiaoshu was independent from young.
She learnt how to walk, how to talk all by herself until when she's 8 years old.
She followed the villages 's children to school. Standing outside the school gates, she met a teacher.
Despite xiaoshu's family background, Miss zhang pitied her and gave her a place in the corner of the class.
She helped her in studys and alot. In the class, Xiaoshu was a " special " student because she had no money to pay school fees, no money to buy shoes and books. Some other classmates know her mum earn money by " selling" body to man. Many hates and look down on xiaoshu and this made xiaoshu lost confidence to herself. She dared not look up when walking pass by people.
Xiaoshu treat the cupboard as her own bed, the reason is because the bed- her mum always had business with man, short, tall, fat, thin all sorts - everynight.
Many male villagers know there's a pretty lady providing this kind of services so everyone wants to try and the exist of her mum became enemy of all the woman in the villages. Everynight, xiaoshu hides in the cupboard. Seeing her mum and other man having sexual intercourse- and sex to xiaoshu is no longer a secret like other young children.But this man is different !
Her mum said she'd fall in love with a guy. This guy named jiang guan yun , handsome, tall and rich. He was not a local, but was from Tai Bei. He just graduated and came here to do business . Her mum told xiaoshu everything about him and xiaoshu admired her mum. The first time her mum felt so happy. Her mum even requested xiaoshu to help her " bluff " jiang guan yun that xiaoshu was her sister not daughter. Xiaoshu agreed . That night , Jiang Guan Yun came and proposed to her mum. After he left, xiaoshu came out but her mum told her to get back because she' going to have the last customer for the money to buy new clothes and do some dolling up.
Unfortunately.. her mum was killed by the customer.
The customer was strong, tall and fierce. He was drunk and rape her mum like mad.
Witnessing her mum 's death, xiaoshu was totally frightened. She stunted there, afraid to move until the "murderer" called police. All the villagers came, including him, Jiang Guan Yun. Since Jiang Guan Yun know Wen Pei Qian, there's alot of comments told to him that xiaoshu's mum was a prostitute but he dont believe. Now, in front of his eyes, he do not want to take in the facts, recalling that Wen Pei Qian told him that she had a sister, Xiaoshu. He chased all the villagers away and shouted for xiaoshu. There was no reply until he caught a sight from a cupboard. He opened up and saw a thin girl crying inside. He lifted xiaoshu 's face and asked. He then realised everything. A feeling popped out into his mind- begin cheated . He asked xiaoshu followed him and she did after all the funeral had finished.
His main purposes was not to take care of her but to torture her. He brought her back to his new-build farm and pushed every chores to her. The whole farm, she was the only female and young girl. For a 16 yrs old girl, everyone think that she cannot take it sooner or later but surprisingly she does everything on time and finished it all with no complain.. instead she felt.. happy because .. she can be with him. Yes you might be thinking ... Huh ? Indeed, Xiaoshu fall in love with him at the first sight she saw him from the cupboard. Her only idea that he brought her back was he want to take care of her. She felt happy .
Jiang Guan Yun was frustrated. He want her to feel insulted, he want her to be tortured but wrong its all wrong, she was happy!
Feeling not happy, he pushed more and more chores for her that xiaoshu had no choice but to drop out from school.
24 hours- she only had 4 hours sleep. The workers there, pitied her , a young beautiful girl begin tortured this way.
Xiaoshu was really a beauty, her smile was sweet and pretty. But to Jiang Guan Yun, xiaoshu's smile was a way to seduce man.
There's one time he caught her smiling to one of the worker, he came and scolded off the worker then turned to xiaoshu and said,
" so , just as i thought..? you're going to take over your mum 's business isn't it? "
after that he disappeared , xiaoshu was hurt. To Jiang Guan yun, xiao shu is a cheap and dirty gal. He hate her because of the feeling cheated by her mum and xiaoshu became the scapegoat for her mum.
Xiao shu love to sketch, she always sat under the tree that she had planted and start sketching. This tree, she like it, but one time when she picked up the seeds , Jiang Guan Yun took it away and plant it in other place , the place where she's sitting and sketching now.
4 years past and this became xiao shu's life, she had no future. One day, she went to the tree and saw him infront of it. She sit under the tree and started sketching. Jiang Guan Yun had one sister named Xiao Ti and XIao Ti was Xiao Shu's good friend.
Xiao Ti came and sat beside her, she asked her ," Xiao Shu, i know you like my brother but liking him is the wrong idea. You should leave him and lead your own future! "
Xiaoshu rejected and insisted her own way. All she wanted is just to be with him. That's all and she will feel satisfy.
When xiao ti went off, Jiang Guan yun suddenly sat beside her. He asked her to be his bed- relationship woman and xiaoshu agreed.
One day, xiaoshu realised she was pregnant. She felt happy but soon was sad because she was afraid of the response from Guan yun.
The day before Guan yun going back to Tai Bei , She asked him if he would want her baby. He replied immediately without thinking ,
" No, i dont want your baby ! "
and she asked him what if she is pregnant , again with no hesitation, he replied ,
" ABORT IT ! "
and he left for tai bei the next day.
During the 10 days when he away, he heard that Xiao shu was missing.
He rushed back immediately with his future wife - Su Zhen Chan.
Upon hearing Guan yun was back, xiao shu ignored the pain on her and went back to the farm.
She served the dinner to Guan yun and Su Zhen Chan .
Guan yun asked her where had she go, she didnt replied but his future wife opened her mouth and start insulting because she saw the eyes in Guan yun, he care and concern about this worker- xiao shu.
She purposely tripped Xiao shu over and let her fall down. The dinner dropped and Su Zhen Chan scolded her. Guan yun was satisfied, watching the show begin. He didnt give any damn until xiao shu fainted.
He quickly carried her to a nearby hospital. One of the nurses saw xiao shu and said to Guan Yun,
" told her not to go back . she had not recovered yet , even if allowed to go back she should not had go work! "
Guan yun then found out from the nurse, that 10 days when he was away.
Xiao shu went for abortion and nearly lost her life due to big amount loss of blood.
After that, he bring her back to the farm and saw the abortion pill on her table but his heart was still hard. He didnt soften down.
xiao shu recovered soon and starts working . She received a news - Guan Yun going to marry soon.
Her heart dropped. Finally she realised her insisting didnt work. Guan Yun still hates her. And he's going to marry other woman soon not her..
everytime xiao shu was bullied by Su Zhen Chan , Guan yun would joined in and also insult her. Even if xiaoshu was not in the wrong.
One day, xiao ti and other workers asked xiao shu to go for a relax stroll . Guan yun stands behind the other workers and asked,
" You dont want to go ? "
" Do you wish me to go? " asked xiaoshu.
" I dont wish you to go, i dont want others to misunderstand. " a cold replied by Guan yun.
Xiaoshu rejected and went back to her room. She was sketching again. Realising one colour was gone she went out to buy.
On that road, xiao shu was robbed and beaten up.
Around 3am++ xiaoshu woke up on the grass, she cried. Without thinking of the injury she had with herself, she ran back to the farm because she was afraid Guan yun would scold her.
Guan yun was pacing up and down outside the farm when he saw her. Xiao shu was shocked that he would wait outside for her, suddenly everything turned blurred and she cant see him. she hugged him tightly and told him not to leave.. Guan yun was pissed.
" Still not satisfied after having it with other man? You're really greedy " said Guan yun.
" please dont go.. dont go .. " begged xiao shu.
" Jiang Xiao Shu, do you really want me to look down on you?! "
And more insulting words were said to her .. and he left after that..
Days past , xiao shu was getting weaker . Some times for no reason, she cant see anything , her sight turned blurred.
Then she realised she was pregnant again, this time knowing that he would not want his baby . she thought carefully.
she want the baby. but he would ask her to abort it so she make a decision..
Guan yun opened the door and saw Xiao Shu outside of his room - with make-up.
She was beautiful, even without make- up but with make-up on. Guan Yun disliked it more.
XIao shu went in his room , he asked xiaoshu to wash away all the make - up and she did.
Then she secretly put a letter under his file. And they had the last night.
Xiao shu left.. she went to find doctor and the information she received was not so good as expected. she wanted to keep the baby but if she do that, she will lost her sight. the reason why is because that night when she was robbed , she was begin hit and thus cause her to be blind soon if she doesnt have a operation. but if she did have the operation, the baby will be gone. so she choose to be blind. she dont want to kill her baby any more.
5 years had gone and Guan Yun was married with Su Zhen Chan but the marriage was not a good one. He had not slept with her at all. They quarrelled almost everytime. Guan yun was sick of her , this 5 years he finally realised his mistakes - using hates to cover over all the love he had for xiaoshu. He was very success on his farm business, now as the top ranking of billionaire. He start to get sick of it. He missed her alot , from America, he came back to Ken Ding. The farm and sat under the tree where xiao shu always sat while sketching. His younger brother's wife suddenly popped out and told him..
" i really need to tell you this , i cant stand it anymore. But dont tell other people that im telling you this, because they will get angry with me! Xiao shu had turned blind after she had given birth to your child , now working at her massage center opened by XIao Ti. We helped her alot but didnt mentioned our identity because she would definitely turned down our offer. "
Suddenly a guy came and grabbed her - Guan yun's younger brother- he had a bad temper and scolded his wife but begin clever , she cried and his temper decrease by 100% because his wife was pregnant now . After they had left, Guan yun rooted to the ground.. shocked..
He went to find his sister but she dont want to give any information. Until he followed her and found out where xiao shu was, he was heartbroken.
Xiaoshu standing outside the school, waiting for her son to be dismiss.
" Mummy! Today teacher teach me alot of new things eh!! " Ji Geng said .
Ji Geng was a boy who looked so like his father - Guan yun and also a understanding boy.
" mummy, open your mouth "
Xiao shu opened her mouth and a sweet was put inside.
" Wah, you give mummy eat , then you ? " asked xiao shu.
" I still have ! " Ji Geng took out the wrapper and pretend to unwrap and put inside his mouth.
" haha , good boy. "
Miss Hua was touched by the scene. Ji Geng was so good to her mum, she called Ji Geng over and gave him more sweets.
Ji Geng thanks her and went over to a mum , then Xiao Ti- Mrs Bo came and fetched them to the massage center.
Xiao shu then let Ji Geng follow Mrs Bo's house to play.
She smiled - the smile was not fake and not afraid any more. Its was more proud and happy, this shocked Guan yun.
She had changed alot.. He went in the massage center and asked Xiao Shu to service him.
His voice stunted Xiao shu but immediately recovered - recalling that he was already married and might have alot of children already.
She asked him his name, and he replied his name as Mr Yu , a novel writer.
He started asking alot of her past though he already know it. He was touched by the love she had for him.
The love that no matter how much torture was given to her , she endured over it.
No matter how much insults and bullies she had endure it. The love never changed even now ..
He decided to win her back, chase her back. He want her back in his life.
Everyday he accompany her and his son , till one day Ji Geng asked her mum that he wanted Guanyun to be his daddy.
Xiao shu was stunted but because of her son persuading , she gave a fake promise.
She requested " Mr Yu " to leave but he rejected it.
Days past , guan yun did alot of things that touched Xiao shu's heart but the love for guan yun.. remain..
Guan yun found a doctor for her. He want her to recover from the blindness, at first xiao shu rejected but agreed to try.
Weeks after her operation, its time for her to unbandage her eyes. She was afraid of the results.
When the bandage left her eyes, her sight was abit blurred so the doctor told her to close her eyes and open it again.
She tried and the people she saw in front of her, shocked her. It was him, guan yun..
Ji Geng ran and hug XIaoshu, xiaoshu didnt expect her son to be so smart and handsome .. just like.. his dad..
All the people that helped her when she had turned blind were all his siblings and friends.. She was touched.
After Guan yun's sister and brothers left, she look around searching for something..
" what are you looking for ? " a same cold voice stopped her searching.
She replied him nothing.
" You 're looking for Mr Yu- the novel writer? " said Guan Yun.
" Yes im looking him or.. "
" You're right, im him- the novel writer. "
Suddenly, a scenery of Ji Geng begin hugged by Guan yun. He came back to take him away from her, all his pretending as novel writer to touch her , were fake. His purpose was to take Ji Geng away..
" Why did you appeared ?" She asked.
" Loving him, is my ability. I cant stop myself from loving him, like you always unable to erase the past and hating him this learning is too hard, its not in my knowledge." said Xiaoshu.
He took in what she said seriously and replied," I came back to take back what its belong to me. "
True, she didnt guess wrong, he came back to take away Ji Geng from her. At this moment, her heart dropped, she lost to him again. She lost her love to him and now.. she's going to lose her last thing in her life- Ji Geng.
" But why? you had your marriage, your children , why do you still want Ji Geng?! "
" I only have Ji Geng this child. " He dont just want Ji Geng but Xiaoshu- this girl who is easily satisfied.
" You both can work hard more and one day, you will have your own child, please.. dont take away Ji Geng..please? " pleaded Xiaoshu.
" We dont have the slots to work hard anymore. " Finally he understands, how hurt she are.. she still mind the exist of Su Zhen Chan.
She keep on pleading and pleading and he keep rejecting and rejecting. Finally she give up by using pleading.
" Im sorry, Mr. Guan Yun but Ji Geng, i will not let you take away. "
" He's my son and his future cannot be confirmed by just your words. " He smiled, only if she lift her head up, she will know what Guan Yun feeling now but its a pitied that she didnt because she had never dared to look into his eyes.
" I had grown up and im had changed. Im independent and i can earn money to support my child."
" You didnt even take good care of yourself. "
" But this few years, i had never let Ji Geng goes hungry. "
" but never let him felt satisfied. " replied GuanYun.
" His knowledge and satisfaction is enough. "
" He need a father, but did you satisfy him?"
" before you came, he had never suggest this. " Getting more and more worried, she lifted her head and saw his smile.
" problem is, i appeared and Ji Geng cant leave me anymore."
" so, you want me to leave him?" His smile pressured her heart. In her life, she always had to face so much separation..
" why do he need to leave you?" he soften down his tone ..
" i thought you're going to bring him back to the farm with Miss Su.. "
" We 're already divorced. " replied Guanyun.
" but why?! " Xiao Shu was shocked after receiving this news. She thought he loved her so much..
" I came to realise i cant sleep the same bed with her, i cant accept her to be wife. "
" This is ridiculous! You're the one who want to marry her! " Xiaoshu argued back.
" I admit my decisicion was ridiculous, i should not have find the other people just because i want to reject my feeling to another person. "
" I don't get it.. " Xiaoshu shooked her head, curiousity written on her head.
" On that night when you're robbed, i waited outside the farm for you. I came back worrying about you, scared that you would leave me; but when you're back, clothes were so untidied, i accused you with another man having sex. Im jealous. Im angry so i put you and your mother together as the same situation.. but i came to realise.. i fall into the same trap. I fall in love with you, fall in love with a full of lie and " cheap " girl , this realise made me angry so i used the most cruel methods to make you leave me.. "
All this words only will come out from Mr novel- writer.. its was like a dream.. he said he love her. How am she going to believe it, how to ?! What if she turn her head and he starts insulting her again?
" i regretted. after that the day you left, i went in your room and saw all the leaves you picked from the tree i planted for you and all the colors you colored on it, all this leaves were critising my unforgivness. I always thought you want to gain something from me just like your mother but you said nothing and left my live not bringing anything along but leave me a memories of the trees.. "
" you said you regretted, but why didnt look for me? "
" its my damn pride that cause me to stop what i really want. I insisted marrying Su Zhen Chan , thinking of using marriage to take over the world. Im right but.. something that were wrong will not turned correct .. On the day of marriage, i saw the smile on Su Zhen Chan's face, right on that moment, i understand i will never be able to live my life with this woman so i keep rejecting her, she hates me and i lost away my marriage. I spent 5 years working hard at america and i turned into America most rich person but all this popularity cant satisfy me, i only feel like returning to Taiwan , staying quietly under the tree that you had left for me."
His words touched Xiao Shu, she forgot all the pain and all the hurt. All she want was to console the man infront of her.
" i kept asking myself, was it your mum who hurt me more or i hurt you more.. i kept asking myself was it the first love i cant forget.. i kept asking and asking.." said Guan Yun.
" got your answer? " asked Xiao Shu.
" Yes, i got it. I had never missed your mum not like you who always came into my heart. To your mum, i only felt angry. Thought through seriously, It her lie which make me get angry and she was the one who give me a feeling of losing pride."
" Losing pride in front of my mum? I dont get it."
" That year, i tried various way to get off my family 's business and started my own business. I purposely get away from the expectations from my parent and do what i wanted to do. Opening a farm is one and choosing own marriage is another. I had chosen your mum because of her beauty and her lack of understanding. Her pure romantic was what i had never experienced before but i didnt realise this decision was a insultation. It ruins my confidence and also ruin my business , it turn everything into a joke , so i asked you to be with me to keep reminding myself. i need to succeed. "
" You did... "
" No, i failed, i lost a girl who idolize me since 16 years old, i lost a girl who felt happy even just by praying and missing me. Lost a girl who cant forget me, and my exist continued in her story life . This is not succeed.. "
" You... " He remembered whatever she said.. clearly..
" XiaoShu, you should had told me everything early.. "
" You wont believe it, you will treat it as another lie.. "
" Im so self-centered, im not worth for your 100% love.. "
" its worth.. in my story life, you're forever worth it.. "
Hugging him, she felt the feeling of happiness.. She's was still Xiao Shu! If there's a chance to love him, even a little bit.. she will catch hold of it..
" My identity is fake , im not a novel writer, are you willing to teach me and help me a good love novel ..? He walked to the window and opened up the box. Pieces of leaves with love shape and names written on it unfold infront of Xiao Shu 's eyes. Holding the leaves, all she can do is to catch hold of it tightly and consoling it..
Xiao Shu's happiness had started.. He's no longer a character in her story.. but her life.. that year, she was 29.. beginning the road of happiness..
Title= Ku Zi Wei; Author= Xi Zhi
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